Due Date

Well, like last time, the due date has arrived, and is quickly coming to a close with baby still on the inside. I told Christian last night (after an accupuncture appt., spicy dinner, and some borage oil) that, "Tomorrow is the first day of feeling like I will be pregnant forever." He laughed, but really, it is the first day of resigning myself to the fact that this baby is not coming out, I will just always be pregnant. I remember feeling like that with Caleb. Yet, after a week he did indeed come out. So, at least I have that proof to look forward to. My Dr. will let me go till 42 weeks... I really hope this baby comes before November 18th, that seems so long from now. And then, my dear friend Andrea reminded me yesterday, of something I told her when she was pregnant with her first child. She had Jesse about 2 weeks after I had Caleb, and since I too had been late, I had some encouragement for her that went something along the lines of, "Each day baby stays in there is one more day that God is perfecting the baby- finishing touches you know?" And, "Each day that baby stays in is one more day that the Lord has something for you to do or experience." And, "Each day baby is in there is one more day for you to have some quality time with your husband, because when baby comes, things will change." That last one is now more like, each day is one more day with Caleb before baby comes... and with Christian as a family of 3 vs. a family of 4, which is presumably a lot crazier.

So I am surrendering to the reality that this baby may be a long time coming and trusting the Lord for each day in the meantime.

I must admit, Caleb and I did have a good time together today. And, I am getting more sleep than I will when baby arrives... that is a good thing too. I do see how God is caring for me during this time too, and have had more time to be reading my Bible and in prayer (since my schedule is pretty clear, since I had hoped to have baby by now). All good things.